I am daily confronted with decisions, moments and challenges that feel like a big deal that make me stop and worry, or fret about the solution. the answer. the action I should make.
I get so caught up in the day to day, that I forget the one thing that is important in this life.
Loving HIM and making His love known.
He is good. He will work things to His will. All we must do is follow Him and share His word.
How simple it seems. How easy that sounds.
But then I find myself arguing with God. Telling Him that things He wants me to do sound so hard. And I don't want to sacrifice any more. I don't want to abandon anymore. And then He says...
"Following ME is all that is important...
not getting married. not having a shower every day. not eating cheeseburgers whenever you want. not working and making money. not even living in community.
none of that matters. only following me. only making my love known to the world."
It kind of puts things in perspective.
How quickly my life becomes petty and self-centered. I have only been home 3 months, and already I have zoomed in on my life, and made everything orbit my needs and desires. Just a few months ago, my needs were last on the list. My clothes, hair, toenails, hunger and belongings were a non-issue. Today they consume my thoughts.
This disturbs me.
Deeply.
How I long to live fully surrendered daily. How I so much desire for my focus to be Him. For my pursual of HIS GLORY the ONLY thing that matters...
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Friend, I love you. I've hesitated saying this but I feel truly compelled (almost uncontrollably) to tell you "Go. Don't stay here. Go to Africa." Whatever that means. Ah- finally! What a relief! Feel like I've been holding that in for months!
I'm learning to be a little bolder...
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